I recently read and watched The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and I can’t get it out of my head because the main character, Charlie, opened my eyes so much. He made me realize that I am a wallflower. I’d never thought of it that way before; I’d called myself shy and an outcast. But after reading that book, I’ve realized there is more to it than that. Sure, I am shy and sure, I’m probably an outcast, but I’m completely a wallflower.
You see, I live everyday watching the world around me. Smiling at people and enjoying conversations that I’m welcomed into, though I don’t usually say much unless I’m extremely comfortable with my company. I don’t go out and do much because I feel like I’d just be a bother to the world if I went anywhere. I don’t offer my opinions because I don’t want to offend anyone. I don’t tell people when they hurt me, because I don’t want to upset them, no matter what it is they’ve done to me. I let people push me around and take advantage of my work ethic and genuine care for the people around me.
All of this just accumulates to equal someone who is not living their life. I’m just hanging here, witnessing other people’s lives, pondering and daydreaming but never actually experiencing much. It’s sort of bothersome to think about, to be honest, though I am not writing this to whine at the world about being “mistreated” or having “no life,” because really, my goal here is to see if Charlie and I are alone in this. Are there more wallflowers out there? Because if you are there, please, take the initiative to do as I am vowing to attempt, LIVE YOUR LIFE. Don’t watch it pass you by. Make goals. Go out. You are a human being not a nuisance. You can care about people and help them without letting them walk all over you. You are not a doormat. Don’t let people wipe their mud on you. Putting others before you is a sign of good virtue, but don’t wear yourself so thin you can’t handle it.
So basically, don’t be me. Don’t be Charlie. Yes, there are perks to being a wallflower. You learn a lot about people and probably have a greater understanding of different perspectives than most people, but what good is it serving you if you aren’t really alive? You’ve probably studied and contemplated enough to last a lifetime anyway. Take your knowledge and run with it. Get out of your mind and into your heart.